I want to make a well-thought out LJ post with deep thoughts and soul searching. The problem is, all of the deep thinking and soul searching I've been doing these days--and there is a lot of it--is on matters that I'm not really willing to talk about in public just yet. Go figure. So, I'm going to talk about my relationship with schoolwork, which has evolved suddenly, but is definitely not as interesting as . . . well, as any number of other things.

I've run into a sudden lack of stress over schoolwork. I have discovered that I just don't care anymore. I want to do well, but . . . it doesn't really matter to me anymore whether some of my grades are Bs. I know I'm doing well enough that I'd have to work pretty hard to anything less than As and Bs this semester, and . . . I'm no longer concerned so much about the configuration of those As and Bs.

And I should be stressed out about the paper that I have to write this weekend for Religion of Socrates, and the fact that it's due the same day as my paper for Roman Empire, especially since I haven't started either of them. The plan is to work on Religion of Socrates this weekend, and Roman Empire on Tuesday and Wednesday. I'm fairly prepared to write the one for Roman Empire--it's about Apuleius, and I adore Apuleius. But the Socrates paper--I haven't even sat down to read through the dialogue I'm writing about yet. (I'm writing on the Symposium, in case you were curious.)

Yet . . . I'm not stressed. It's like a big mound of apathy piled up on top of my head. I'm not stressed that we haven't found a storage unit for the summer yet. I'm not worried about turning in sub-standard papers. I'm . . . coasting. Look at me--it's 4pm, and I haven't started working yet. (Bad Emma!)

Oddly, this change of attitude seems to have been sparked on some level by my involvement with Dulaan. There might be something there about a connection between energy spent focusing on others versus energy spent worrying about myself. I'm not sure. But I suppose that if it's the case, it's a good thing, so who am I to question it?

Speaking of Dulaan, I met with a guy from the Lynchburg News and Advance yesterday to talk about it. There'll be a piece on it in Tuesday's paper. It's a little late for getting people involved with Dulaan!SBC, but I hope that it'll stir up some interest and get Lynchburg knitters sending things to Arizona. That would be shiny.